We’re all shallow.
Truth of the matter is, it’s true. Whether we deny ourselves, everyone is shallow. We simply take a look at a person, and within a matter of seconds, judge them based off their appearance. We automatically tell ourselves that we either like them, or we don’t, without even getting to know them. Think of it like this, if you see a guy/ girl with acne, messy hair, poor dressing style, being too short or too tall, being fat or being too skinny, we automatically dislike that person. But on the other hand, if we see a guy that has perfect skin, a fit body, decent height/tall, dresses classy, has an amazing smile, we think that’s sexy. Or even for a girl, if she has beautiful eyes, flawless skin, perfect tan color, dresses pretty, beautiful hair, or even skinny/ fit, we think she’s attractive. We never think about getting to know someone for who they are on the inside, not the outside. We might not intend this or want it to happen, but we’re living in a society where people have grew up to be shallow.
Happy New Year to everyone again! I hope everyone had an amazing day. Wish it was filled with joy and happiness spent with family and friends. I sure had an amazing day. Went to Barona Casino with my mom since she was begging me to go. So we went up there, omg it was beyond packed, like no seats for any Bacarat tables, so we stood around for about half and hour and we found a seat. Won a $400 dragon at first but then lost half back. After the second shoe, got money back, broke even, and still won about $500 in the end. Joshua luckily didn’t kill us in the shoe. We requested the host manager to let him deal since we didn’t want anyone else. Celebrated the New Year party with my mom up there, ended up seeing Tito, Vanney, Chansouk, and Jimmy up there. We left around 2:30 and got home around 3. Went to bed, woke up around 9 to get ready for the other party at cousins house. Got pretty turnt, then got sober as fuck later at the party. Went up to cousins house just thinking I was gonna eat and nothing besides that. Later, the cousins went and brought out bottles and we got pretty fucked up. Later for dinner, my mom took 17 of us out to Pho Pasture and treated us for New Years. Dinner was bomb asf.
-Overall, pretty good New Years this year. Good vibes, good company spent with the family.
You know what I admire?
The fact you could take me as I am. You learned to deal with my bullshit. I know I’m a difficult person to deal with at times but yet, you still stick around. The fact that you accept my flaws and insecurities makes me know that you truly care about me. I have my days where I’m moody, bitchy, grouchy, etc, but you never once let that get in the way of our conversations. You’re one of the people that I admire for accepting me for who I am without judging me.
I may be not attracted to girls as much as guys, but I sure do know how to treat a girl better than a straight guy would. It’s the perks of being bi/ gay that you hang around with more girls than guys to understand their inner thoughts and true emotions. You get used to girls venting to you, you get used to them talking about their boy problems to the extent that you could treat them better than any other guy would. I think bi/ gay guys can understand a girl better than a straight guy would. It’s like we share some kind of same background so whenever they’re in a situation involving a guy, we know how to handle it and how to comfort them. It’s funny how every girl has their gay best friend.
I hate the feeling,
The feeling of being worried and cautious that you will form an attachment with your ex again. Just the fact that you see him/ her makes me scared because I don’t want to lose you. I know I put all my trust in you but that tension and vibe is still there. I know you probably wont try to get back with your ex again, but who knows what they’re thinking. I’m just asking to please don’t leave me for someone who broke your heart once before.
You know what is special?
When someone can stick around for me. They know I’m a handful to handle. They know I can be bitchy and stuck up. It’s special when that person can see through my flaws and insecurities, but says, “I don’t care babe, I want to learn about you so I know what to look out for.” That right there shows how much that person cares about you and can accept you for who you are, no matter how much bullshit they go through. That’s a keeper right there, those are the people that are hard to find. Keep those people close to you and cherish them.
I’m glad I met you.
Haven’t been really in the mood lately, and talking to you just makes things better. You make my nights better and my days complete. Thanks for being here when I’m broken. Thanks for sticking around unlike those who left. I’m glad I can say you were a part of my life.
You know what I don’t understand?
Why do you get jealous that I’m talking to someone else, when clearly, you left me and moved on first. Can you take a second to realize that you left like nothing happened, and just left me here waiting. You know I can’t wait forever, I have to move on some day. Please don’t be mad at me when you were the one that lost your chance. I’m sorry but it’s best and better for the both of us if we both go our separate ways.